I CHOSE THE RED PILL

Today, I got a mail from a frequent reader of my blog – a person whom I respect a lot, and whose opinions I always take into  serious consideration.

The tone of his (alright, it’s a HE, all you nosey parkers! ) voice didn’t have the friendly and brotherly warmth, this time. There was a subtle note of anger juxtaposed with a suitable sense of derision – and all his words were directed at just one point – the plummeting quality of content in my blog.

Alright, I can argue that this is my blog, and I can write whatever I like without considering my readers – but, that’s the last thing I’d EVER do! Because, readers are my motivation! I’d die without comments And that’s exactly what keeps fuelling my passion to write more and more…

Yet, in the light of my dismal credit rating, I had to take some dire measures and work against my . In a way, I sold myself, my imagination, my words – for money (in United States’ Dollars, nonetheless). My mind flooded with remorse, for every such non-passionate action of mine here, my heart bled. I tried to cover up, but in vain.

And his mail was the last nail in the coffin.

I request all of you with folded arms and tears in my eyes, to bare with me. No, I can’t guarantee a total full stop to the kind of crap I’ve been sh!tting here, but I promise you – sunny days aren’t far away. The strongest arrow in my quiver – my brain, is still agile, and as long as time shall be with me, I shall write.

And I shall improve, and bring a smile to your face.

P.S.

This post was borne out of a bout of depression. I might’ve gone overboard with emotions, but that’s poor ol’ me. Apologies over this hugely digressed-apology!

Those of you who’ve been visiting this blog for the past week might’ve noticed a sharp increase in my posting frequency – to be more precise, I’ve been blogging, daily for the past four days, straight!

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Not because I’m jobless, actually I’m everything but jobless! I’ve got lab exams right now – yet, I took some time out of my busy schedule and blogged. Not because I’m neglecting studies or anything – I’ve made a landmark decision about my life.

For a while now, I was going through a Quarter Life crisis – which is at its peak, right now. For everything I did, for everywhere I turned, some problem or other would pounce upon me, like a vicious and hungry tigress attacking its prey. I’ve become masochistic about life’s problems – I’ve almost begun to enjoy, while basking in this multitude of issues posed by life. By now, I’ve been embroiled in (almost) all sorts of problems a teenager could get himself into- oops forgot, I ceased to exist as a teen as I turned 20 a year back!

And amid all this, I made an amazing self-discovery, I found my true love, my calling!

You guessed that right, I’ve chosen the red pill again – My sojourn from dreams to reality has got a whole new meaning now, that I’m a PRO-blogger!

Those of you who know me personally and bother to read my tags might’ve already got the hint not-so-long-ago. But for others, I’m just making it official. And don’t get ideas about the ‘PRO’ prefix – no, I’m not professional yet, I haven’t made HUGE amounts of money like Amit Aggarwal, I haven’t even made a single authoritative post, like Arun. Yet, I have my moments of fame. I did take a session on blogging at FOSSMeet, NIT Calicut, on invitation! I’m unofficially the CTO of a budding Quiz Blog, and I’ve even hosted a quiz to boot!

And as a first step towards my goal, I’m goanna start blogging, daily.

A huge thank you, to all my readers/commenters who’ve been with me through thick and thin, commenting even in the worst of posts and lifting my feeble morale. A hug and a kiss to all of you!!

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